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Finally our journey started on 31st. It's fun filled and expecting a lot of surprises. We packed or luggage with plenty of snacks and were planning to keep our tummy packed through out the journey. It turned out to be a fascinating one. Called up Meru cab at around 11:30. Reached station at around 12:45. Ac was not switched on at that time so we spent some time on the platform. The seats were comparatively smaller and we're not wide enough for mili and Adi. But the euphoria was too high. Few tea vendors were moving in the compartment. Don't know how many cups we had. But the tea with snacks were fabulous. I planned it in a way that it became a picnic for us.I purposefully switched off my phone. Never intended to work or be in contact with office for the entire vacation. It's good to be switched off for some time to switch back on with full energy when back to office. I don't want to mention office as a word also now.  Got a kg of litchi at Howrah station. It was tas...

In cab and it's raining outside. I think this year rain came quite early. It's pleasant weather outside and it's too hot at deoghar. Don't know what the kids will do. All the shopping is over. Got a turtle jacket and a tee. All set to go. Tickets are booked so no tension there as well, running after TT to get a berth.  Got the new weights and the exercise bench. Really loving it. Post the work out it feels so great and elevated and it releases the stress. I am able to handle much more load and complex things quite easily. It makes a lot of difference. You feel good from within. I have started a dinosaur tale for Etu. He is fascinated by them and every night I have to tell him a section or portion of the story. I call each episode with a fancy name like "TREX chased away" or "the monster anaconda". My whole intention is make him forget the day and just listen to the story make some correlation with the past or laugh his way out. I make some funny stat...

I got my exercise bench today. The intention is to use it in the long run but let's see till when it goes. The barbell rod were a disappointment, I was expecting the bolts to be more round type but it came as  it was with me now, the old one. But still it's good. I am expecting the dumbbell sets tomorrow that will help me giving the variable weights for bench press, shoulder press and also lighter weights for side raise. I am converting my 3rd room as mini gym.  I love it, well I don't have any other place to spend money so why don't spend on something which is good and is healthy. Shopping is on full swing for Ritesh marriage. It's almost done but still something is pending like blazer. Shall I go for it, in hot summertime will be a pain. But Ritesh marriage is the last big ceremony at our home. He just ordered his camera, was watching it closely for about a month. The price kept moving up and down and finally he got it at 34k approx. I got the surprise refund of 2...

Good news. Got 30 percent hike this year. It feels good to get a fat check every month but with every passing time there is an extra responsibility that is entrusted on you and the expectation is set very high. Still fumbling with the management terminology, which Prashanth is expecting out of me. I feel he is a bit annoyed with my salary and was not expecting these numbers.  Thanks a lot Mathai for the trust and confidence in me. It was only because of him, I could have done something as good as this.  To be frank, I am not over board with this. Yes, money is important but how much. You will only feel the  need when you badly need it like medical or education. I am still very far from education but medical is not under you. Planning to get a health insurance on top of company paid. Never know when it's required. I am a simple guy, not fascinated by cloths, watches, electronics etc. Need a very small number to live. I like travelling but with small kids it's difficult. I ...

Long time no activity. Is everything all right. Yes it is. Today was a boring day, didn't wanted to work. If I recall through the monthly expense tracker we went over board. Adi broke mili's lumia screen, papa had to call prince then went to malleshwaram to get it fixed on last Friday. It still has some issue. The I got samsung duos for papa. He will have a tough time with the phone but once accustomed he will have fun. I made butter chicken last Sunday, it's becoming my signature recipe. It was wonderfully. Etu feasted on it like anything. Any way he never leaves chicken alone leg it be in any form. We were planning to chikamaglur for the weekend but it's too far away and papa and mummy will not be able to manage it. Ritesh is planning for his honeymoon. He is going to manali, and made his reservation. Mili has a problem every time she hears about honeymoon because she missed it. Well the situation was not proper during our marriage. Already a new comer to Ocwen, in pr...

Had the first mom with Prashanth. Usual expression, don't know what that guy wants. I think people as they grow up, there is a tendency to confuse things up or say things which cannot be expressed in numbers. For me if anything if cannot be expressed in numbers then it has little value. Every sentence unless quantifiable it does not means anything. The process, motivation holy shit. Just tell them clearly what needs to be done and don't back off, is all what is needed to get things moving. Observe there personal space, dont load them with tons of shit work etc. In the name of process and big management words many people are saving there work and confusing many. I know getting things in an orderly manner will help but there are better ways of expressing the same. Not just digging out a page from some book and spilling it over and let oth figure out what does that mean. It's shit. I have planned in a different way. Let me go through some document the I will put this in front ...

Etu celebrated his birthday again at innovative film city. Why he loves that place is because of pool, he loves water and can stay there for hours. His nanji also stepped into water. Adi also had some great time. The time when we entered film city, he started his tantrum. He doesn't wants anything other than pool. We took him to toddler den,wher he played with small balls. He crawled. Jumped and did whatever he can. He started into the mood. Adi also joined him. The we played some drums and it was a good fun. Adi is a bit more daring than Etu. He went for horse riding with ritesh. Seeing him Etu also went with me. It's not comfortable that's what I think. It's bumpy and you always feel like thrown away. Dino park was as usual and Etu was more interested in getting out than staying in. I offered him to take pics on his own. I handed him the camera. He felt more responsible and now had a weapon to feel comfortable. He clicked at random and that clicked for some time. Fina...

Poor child is grieving in pain for last 5 days. First permanent molar brings so pain and discomfort I realized now. I don't remember mine but it's really painfull. The problem has compounded because of tonsillitis. I could have given him cold food like ice cream to relieve him from pain but tonsillitis prevents me from doing it. The gums have swollen. He is on antibiotic for last 3 days. Improvements are felt but not enough to bring him to the dining table. Because of the swollen gums he is unable to chew food and he is not mature enough to just use his first set of teeth.  Yesterday we went to get his nanji and nani from railway station. I gave him a appy tetra and he managed to gulp some inside. But that's all he has eaten till now. Actually due to navratra we are not giving him non veg. But I feel pity. I felt crying sat night when he said the food is tasty but he can't eat. Early Sunday morning, he was crying because of hunger, I gave him some milk solids. It's ...

Once Adi is over with his viral now it's Etu turn. He is having teeth pain particularly the gums, sore throat and little high temperature. Etu and me slept over the cot on floor. The cot was not good, it has bumps and I didn't sleep well. Need to change the cot. He wake up at 4 and poor chap was not keeping well. The occasional pain in throat makes it difficult to breath as well. I gave him ibugesic and he was sleeping till 11:45. At least he had a good sleep and hopefully he will come back strong. He is eagerly waiting for his nana and nani, obviously for toys. He has already prepared his shopping list which included megatron, hot wheels and few other kids machine. They are coming by 6th. Yesterday was cool in office, the Citrix issue was resolved and looking for a big list this weekend but they are small ticket items. Adiv recovered and still his gums are swollen but he is sleeping well. The summer is creating problem.

Adiv is having a very tough time. His viral fever subsided but teeth problem continues to be a big issue. He is unable to sleep properly so mili and myself are also unable to sleep. He wakes up frequently at night and I don't know why my sleep also has become very disruptive. On a slight sound I get up. We started the homeopathic medicine teething trouble combination 21. I am hoping very badly that he gets some relief, which will give some rest to me as well. I was trying for work from home but I don't think I am too comfortable with Prashanth on this. Mathai has been very helpful. Finally booked the ticket on 31st May for Ritesh marriage. He is also coming along. Fortunately we got the confirmed seats. I am in a very bad shape today. Didn't had a good sleep for last 4 to 5 days. Mili is in much bad condition than me. Poor girl, parenting takes a toll.

Don't know what to write. Not in a good mood. Adiv is sick with viral fever since 26th. Occasional high fever, he pukes everything. Yesterday I worked from home. We took him to the doctor Pradeep at MSR and he diagnosed viral infection.asked us to continue with the ibugesic and relent syrup. Give him sponge bath every time fever shoots up. With summer getting bad day by day, it's really a pain to have a fever. He told us if the situation does not improves then we have to revisit again by tomorrow. I think I will take home. Have a worst feeling that unless antibiotics are prescribed things will not improve. It's a repeat after 6 months. What happened is Etu missed his school today. Adi got up at 4am and was running very high temperature, we gave him the medicine and and it took almost 2 hrs for him to sleep peacefully. I took him to my bed and we talked a lot, I was telling him some story and he asked me to include some familiar faces like Etu, mummy, kaku, Kush etc. kids ar...

Yesterday was my and Ritesh birthday. A blast and when we both took off from work it got to be special. First half got spoilt by a call from office. They don't stop pestering even when you are on leave. The nas presentation was to be discussed for mr juneja. I have briefed everything on last Friday but still no body want to take it forward. Still I managed to shrug it off.  Later a good message came to carry on from office. That's it. We had a cake cutting on Sunday night, as usual Etu and Adi wanted to get there hands dirty as soon it was placed. I managed to hold them for some time. Finished the night with a peg of Jameson. It was a day to celebrate, we had to decide between Saadi ke side effects or queen. Mili was for queen as she didn't wanted to get into any arguments after close to 8 yrs into marriage. We went for some grocery shopping and then queen. Adiv was not enjoying, as soon as the lights went off he switched on. Telling to go home. It was not his movies also E...

Etu recitation poem for euro seniors on 24 the march. I don't remember whether I had this too in school but want to see how it feels to recite poem. I look in the mirror and what do I see A pair of eyes looks back at me A nose, two ears, two eyebrows too: Two lips, and teeth, to say "I love you" I look in the mirror and what do I see I look in the mirror And I see me.

Etu didn't go to school today. Mili was too tired to get up and Adi was making it horrible. I think he is not eating properly at night and so wakes up every now and then. He gets his portion at dinner time with me but how to estimate when he is done is tough. I think he needs a glass of milk 30 mnts after dinner so he is actually full before sleeping.  I will take mili to doctor tomorrow at MS, she is constantly complaining of pain in her sole. Better not to ignore. I showed some of the flipboard pictures of exotic hotels to Etu, he was excited. I think in this way I will be able to realize the true potential of iPad as a means of communication. Also I have to keep tab on the irctc date for onward reservation. I will setup a reminder. The nas monitoring discussion is happening today. I managed to churn up some numbers for our nas storage. I don't want to think about the office stuff right now. Etu is excited about the shawarma that I promised him today. Small things make a big ...

Weird problem, the office mailbox is full and I have to send out an important communication. Was trying different options in nitro desk but was not going through. Why people send out a big email without compressing it? Also I need to tweak my reale script to send out the compressed log file only not the blank text. Feeling a bit down today, it's started getting hot suddenly and the perennial problem of sore throat and stufy nose. Didn't had a good sleep last night. I have fixed alarm for 23:15 as dinner and 23:45 as bed time. But I myself is a bit hesitant in doing this, after a day long work it's difficult to switch off and go to bed without having a talk with Etu and Adi. But in the morning at 7:15, and when I have to wake Etu up for school it becomes a matter of desperation why he didn't slept on time yesterday etc. so it's become a cycle now. I have to do something to break this jinx.  Pretty engaged weekend lies ahead with vmax install and few critical changes ...

Pretty bad last night, the lingering problem with un organised support function creates a hell lot of chaos. The last minute request and the urgency to complete it as soon as possible makes every plan  go squandering. In a corporate culture there are certain decisions at the interest of a bigger audience cannot be avoided when the stake is huge, but it could be planned. The stageV migration to exa, the oracle team needed 7.5 tb on priority. The number is not less that can be done on the fly especially when there is a storage crunch I pushed back saying it can only be done next day. The changes that has to be done are quite small but a small mistake can cost very dear, and the people are trying to push things to the limit and waiting for the blame game to start.  I am writing in a flow and I can feel the difference when posting blog from iPad than with the mobile. Thanks to mili. We went to syndicate bank in a hurry to collect our fixed deposit certificate and this resulted in...

Lot to write. We celebrated holi with lot of colors and good glass of bhang. Of course bhang was for me alone. The whole day I was on a different world, I ate a lot don't know what but it appeared very tasty everytime. Kids also had a good time. Monday morning hangover was pathetic. The whole head was spinning like a wheel. Saturday was santosh birthday so our dinner was already arranged. Monday evening we went to Orion mall with the new hair cut of Adiv. He was looking totally different. The innocence has improved many fold. He was having a very tough time with his hair. The curly portion at the end made it difficult to comb. Mili as usual posted some nice pics on her Facebook's account. She is enjoying a lot with FB, its like a friend to her. Ritesh had a bash with sippy yesterday. They enjoyed a good time. He didn't cared what mom and dad will think. Well the euphoria doesn't care also and the feeling of togetherness makes it a day. He is returning tomorrow. Then t...

Quite happy today got full ICP. Thanks to Mathai. Really delighted to get returns on the hard work throughout 2013. Very very happy. Mili is much more than me. Its already planned. We will get it fixed for kids. They will need it in future. Mathai was planning to move abroad either to Canada or Australia. He gave me a few references. I have to get the voter list fixed tomorrow. Rites send few pics of his engagement. He was looking very good. I have seen him grow as a baby and now he his starting a new chapter. Time moves fast. Got shawarma for Mili and Etu.

Getting anxious for the bonus. Scheduled for 14th. Lets see how much it comes. Ritesh left for his engagement by morning flight. The cabin baggage was too heavy so it went to checked. He kept the jewellery in the bag itself. Should have kept with himself. But nevertheless he got it safe. Nupur got engaged yesterday. She is a sweet girl. Nothing exciting today except tons of work which I cannot avoid.

Tiring day lays ahead. Last night Etu was very adamant for a bed time story. I dont know why but sometime just accept it. I told him below. It actually came on whatsapp so i modified it to convey some message as well. ===== start ====== Once a dog was wandering In forest. He lost his way and he was taking rest beneath a tree. He saw a tiger coming and since he was very tired he couldn't move. Also he was no match for the tiger. He turned his back towards tiger and when the tiger was very close he spoke in high voice "I am feeling very hungry if I could get tiger now, I will tear him apart and get his heart. So delicious I am waiting to pound." Tiger on hearing this got afraid and thought this is some very powerful  dog and I am no match for him. He left. There was a monkey sitting on top of the tree. He knew everything and thought of teaching a lesson to the dog. He ran behind tiger and told him you are a fool. Dog has made fun of you. Tiger was very angry and he rush...

Senthil is on leave post RP changes last evening. I feel its not correct, since the change could create problem the next day. The person who is doing the change should be available. People have not yet stood up to take ownership of the change. Talked to Sunil last evening. He is settled in Muscat now. The environment is small but he went there for a purpose. We went to Reliance fresh last night at 8 pm. Quite late but till 8 i was on RP change. It was fun at Royalmart, Etu and Adiv enjoyed on the foot steps. It was almost 2am when i slept off. Etu also went quite late around 12:30. But the boy got up for school. He is a fighter and my pride. I was looking on internet for the difficulties in bringing up 1 vs 2 child. Not quite advantage and disadvantage but the challenges. Adu has started picking up small words and it melts my heart when he tells "juice chahiye" or "sunder babu" "bhaiya good". I can sit hours listening to his 2 words. He has his own prefe...

The week finished good. The amount of work doesnt leaves enough room to think anything else. Creating reports, setup monitoring, weekend changes, followup etc. With Sunil out, Joga doubtfull, Abhishek on leave, Senthil still learning tough days are ahead. And i have to work quickly to get things in order. Saurabh is doing a wonderful job. The pressing problem is management throwing balls among each other. Dont know whats happenning. Pissed off, hey not really. I love my job. Nothings pending on me. So, i am happy. Going back and i am pleased. Few books i will get it downloaded during weekends. One for capacity planning and other for problem solving. Certain things cannot be articulated. Etu will definetly tell me about his nursery trip. Lets see how the weekend RPA change goes in. One thing is sure i need to brushup my symcli skills.

Adiv bday was a blast. He enjoyed completely with Etu and Kush. It was a small party with Santosh family and us. We let loose them to do whatever they feel. They jumped shouted and played for almost 3 hrs. We got a talking tom toy for Adu and at night he told me to sing a song as Tom was sleeping. He wrapped him up bedsheet so that tom doesnt catches cold. It was awesome. We had fish at dinner which Ritu and Mili prepared. It was tasty. Santosh and myself talked over hosting services vs cloud. He had some idea. I was on PTO yesterday. It has been too many in recent past and i hate it. It affects your work especially when lots of moving parts are there. Morning there was an escalation regarding nextgen. The stress test environment was not sized up properly. It was on vnx but should have been on vmax. At least we know the problem. Its going to be a bad day. Its high time we should zero in on the process that should be done first thing in the morning.

Last night was a bit hectic. Got the ticket booked for Mili's mom and dad. They are coming here on 6th apr for Etu birthday. Morning turned out to be late. First time, alarm didnt wake me up. Etu got up after a bit pampering but the kid is really very cooperative. Just get his mood boosted up and i promised him shawarma today. Yesterday got heads up from Devesh regarding US travel for 2 weeks. Most probably it will be penysylvania the rescap office. My head was busy doing the travel plans while i was in office as well. The hotel should be close to office and indian store should be nearby. I just cant live on the restaurant food. Drives me crazy. Few days like 2 or 3 is ok but not everyday. How many cloths etc and so many things. Had a busy day with escalations and office politics. It gets boring when only one way communication happens and people are desperate to go out of the meeting room. Well a lot of process and other crap were discussed. Meet subu from EMC along with his team...

Weekend was a breeze like others. We went to Mantri for shopping, Ritesh had to get shirt and trouser for his engagement. We headed to Shoppers Stop and he tried different options and finally settled for a light green shirt and dark grey trouser. I also got a few underwear for Etu. Next to Auchan for Adi dress for his B'day. Collection was not impressive at Max so shopped for few grocery items and returned. It was raining while we reached back. We already had snacks from KFC so were full. This was on Saturday. Last evening we went to get Adiv dress. Choose a yellow tee and ordered his cake at Just Bake, my favourite Irish Coffee. Normally i dont eat any cake or pasteries but sometimes i let go my inhibition. Etu asked for a story and without that he will not sleep. So i told him below ==== start ===== There was once in a chinneese village a dark spell was cast. Moon never appeared in the sky and people often were curious to find out why? Some wise men suggested to go the temple...

The people from NE are the best people. Not because i did my MCA from Assam and I have a soft corner for them. They have a very big heart and there simplicity wins you over. I have meet some of the most charming personality in my life and they are from NE. The place which i will never forget. The best days of my life were spent there. Whatever i am today i owe to them. Its very difficult to see here why a person cannot be simple and open like them. I meet Ajay today. He dropped me to Gangama circle for my cab. We discussed on what we are doing the new technology outranet which i have to google. The 5km stretch was very pleasing. They are shifting to Ramamurthy nagar shortly. He openly said he was living here to save some bucks but fuel was eating into his expenses. Today is Friday and a lot needs to be planned for next weekend RP replication. Few change needs to be approved. Not too much of office stuff this weekend. Got tge arabian shawarma for Mili and Etaash. They love it amd i l...

IThe day went by. It was Mili's b'day. We went for Dominos pizza. She loves it. The first serve was good but the additional small chicken spicy was not good. Kids had a blast, they feasted on the pizza. Adiv was contend with bread sticks and choco lava. I dont know how that stuff is made but with empty stomach it went well. We went to get some cloths for her but the quality was horrible. She asked for whether milk cake is available at Kanti sweets or not. It was her day so it was there. She was delighted. Love to see that smile on her face. Little things make a huge difference. She is gradually getting hooked to FB. As soon as we reached home she was desperate to get the snaps she took at Dominos to be uploaded. Finally she did it. Somethings are better left as it is. No need to use your intelligence. She made aloo chat in evening and it was indeed delicious. I had to login for 2 hrs to do some office stuff. Its difficult to take a day off every week but cant help. Some escal...

An empty tummy can drive anybody wild. Learnt last night. Adiv didnt eat properly and he was just driving crazy throughout the night. Got up at 4 and thought will not be able to sleep but dozed off. Mili had a tough time, he was constantly asking for feeding and she didnt had enough energy left to go and prepare cerelac for him. Felt pity on her but myself couldnt do it. Finally Adiv got up at 7 before alarm. Etaash had to get up for school. He got up with a smile and was very cheerfull. I had a good time with him last night. Whatsapp message made a difference. How simple things can make life easier for both kids and parents. Just sit with them and talk in language which they understand. Not with authority but as if you are also a child. He was playing some games and i also got involved. Finally he forced Mili and myself to break the ice over yesterday dosa fiasco. We should learn from children. For them nothing is more important than having there loved ones stay together. He is growi...

Going back from work. In cab. I was going through a whatsapp message which prompted me to ask question whether i was doing right to my elder kid. Just thought of putting myself in his shoes. He was a darling and was a dream child for any parent. Lots of love caring, playing around just to say he was very happy. Then Adiv came. Etaash was growing and were his needs. He needed attention someone who can understand his queries. He wanted to cuddle up but he was a bit heavier on the weight side so i had to resist his advances. But i didnt do a good job in explaining this very simple thing to him. Feeling ashamed. I can feel he is loosing interest in family affairs and wants the same attention as Adiv. I think he has a much bigger heart than me. I feel crying sometimes but the male ego over powers. Living in a highly stressed enviroment has its own downside and the affected are the innocent lives. Our own expectation and the ambition to scale up makes life difficult for the childrens. I do...

Don't know. whether it should be the first page or I am starting from middle. The idea of putting something was there but always had an excuse for not doing it. I should have started when I was in University, the best days of my life or perhaps when I got married to Mili or when we had Etaash our elder kid or at least when Adiv came. Nevertheless I missed the ride but its never too late. The very idea of capturing something which you can recall later makes me feel good. Human have a very short memory and the quest for more knowledge makes little room for the past. So, decided to put my thoughts in words whenever I recall something.